The Serenity Spot: October 2005

Can I keep him?

"Do you like my new yoga pants? They were only $7."

"Yeah, but why do you need special pants to eat yogurt?"

I love him. He makes me laugh.

100% Bitching (Completely Uncensored)

Okay, I am going to let loose. This is not a "blowing sunshine up your ass" kind of post. If you want positive vibes, I apologize but you will have to go somewhere else today. This appeared to work for K, Bev, Lisa, Jess, Christie, and many others so here goes......

I am tired. I am tired of trying to be everything that everyone wants me to be. Everyone is proud of me and I appreciate that. I AM a hard worker, a good wife, a good mommy to the pups, and a caring person. I pray for everyone else before I pray for myself. But....and this is where it gets really good.....I have been FUCKED. I have been fucked without even a please or thank you. I have been robbed of my own identity. I finally found the one thing that really meant something to me and it was taken away. I worked my ass off to become a firefighter and paramedic. My patients and their families always came first. I didn't have a hidden agenda. I didn't want an administrative position. I didn't want to be a Lieutenant or a Battalion Chief. I just wanted to be. I didn't play into the political bullshit and I got fired. I was accused of doing something that....to this day.....I don't remember doing and there isn't any proof that I did it except for someone saying that I did it. I...being the naive dumbass that I am....accepted responsibility for it though because why would someone lie? Guess what? I don't remember a lot of things anymore. I am so stressed beyond my wildest imagination that it's no fucking wonder I forget shit.

By the grace of God, I got rehired at a former place of employment. They know that I am not a boob and hired me in spite of being fired. I work really hard. I am faced with some of the same obstacles as before. Realization: I don't work well with others. I can be a part of a team just fine as long as the TEAM has the same goals as the organization. I have worked with so many people that just don't care. They are either there for the money or as a stepping stone. Maybe it is an age thing....I don't know.

I have been the only person bringing in a paycheck for quite a while. Unemployment is outrageous in Ohio. I wish that someone would just fucking hire my husband already.......please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I took a major pay cut when I got hired at my current employer. We are so in debt up to our eyeballs that I am just sick, sick, sick.

Politics: Bush needs to resign or get impeached.....he's fucking us. I wholly support our troops but why are they over there.....REALLY? The reason I bring this up is because there was a documentary on the other night that just didn't sit well with me. You know...while I am bitching I might as well get this off of my chest too. Are we strategically placing ourselves to acquire oil? If so, that's bullshit. That makes us no better than the others. We would be thieves. Again.....why must people use others for their own personal agendas.

Okay, now the dreaded Tracker/Body for Life Challenge. Good gravy (btw, pass me some of that)!!! I will tell you who I voted for and why. I voted for Lori Rickett. She is a police officer and to have that schedule and accomplish what she has. Just look at her. She looks fantastic. After dealing with the crap that she does on a daily basis and still maintain a positive outlook....wow. Jobs like that "harden" you. I know it from experience. I am sorry that the others have suffered personal tragedies. I have seen a lot in my lifetime and some of their stories pale in comparison. I want a Champion that is someone real.....that isn't using personal strife to gain something. That's sick and it's sad.

I am sure that I have more to bitch about but if you made it this far, thank you for reading. Your co-pay for the therapy is in the mail.

A Perfect Day

Innocence

Music to my ears....

Bow wow yo yippy yo yippy yay, bow WOW yippy yo yippay YAY! I love that song. Did you just have a flashback? Music is awesome. I sing at the top of my lungs in the car. It's funny how I can think back on songs from the 80's and early 90's and remember certain things. Today's music....not so much. I feel like dancin'...woo...dancin'...woo....dance the night away.

After the visit to the Vet (heehee Lisa), Hunter acted like a major Butt Dart. I think they respond like children do to shots. He was cranky and I think the injection sites were sore. Today, he's back to his normal Turkey Butt status. I think Libby's ears are feeling better too. Mommy gives the pills and Daddy does the ear drops. The ear drops smell like peaches. Hubby said that he is sick of the smell. I, being the lush that I am, recall the time that I drank a Big Gulp's worth of Fuzzy Navels. Blech....

I am excited because Jess and I have decided to meet up when she comes to KY. That is if her Turd Ass boss (I'm full of names today...and it's Sunday!) lets her take vacation. By the way.....have you all ever tried Kentucky Jelly? Not so good on toast. ;P

I am also excited because K might move closer to me. I am thinking good thoughts that her hubby will have a stupendous offer that he just can't refuse. :)

I am sitting here, typing away, and eating some really yummy Chinese food. It's my one last hoorah before I crack down this week. Time to get serious.

If you have a WallyWorld near you, you have to look for Lander's new shower gel. It's a 3-in-1 (bath, hair, shower). I got a Creme Caramel and a Coconut. They smell very good and they are inexpensive. It smells sinful but it won't make you fat.

Well, back to crocheting my afghan and waiting for people to die. So depressing, so boring.

Check-ups for the kids....

Oh they were sooooo good. Well, Hunter was a bit of a pain in the booty on the way there (and kind of while we were there too). He likes to talk a lot. He has a very high-pitched voice sometimes. Libby was an angel. She just looked out the window and put up with Hunter walking all over her. They each weighed more than last time. *Daddy gives them A LOT of cookies* Both of their BM's were worm-free and blood tests were A-okay. They each got their shots and were very good. Hunter did not like the toofers exam. You'd have thought that Doc was pulling them all out. When it came time to get the Bordotella up the nose......Hunter said "yeah, right!" So, he got the shot. Hunter did not care for the eye exam either. He pretty much made a liar out of me. I said "Oh, you can just about do anything to Hunter. He doesn't care." Okay, so today he cared!!! Hunter has a perianal adenoma. I was bummed. It is benign; however, it looks like he has a penis growing out of his bunghole. He doesn't seem to care, though. Since we need to have it removed, I have decided to finally have him neutered. I think I am more attached to his balls than he is. I can't bare the thought of him having surgery much less having something removed from him. He will be 8 in April. I think I have put it off for long enough. Oh yeah....that's going to cost about 500 smackaroonies!!!!! *Will work for testicles and bunghole growth removal* Libby has hellacious ear infections. They are chronic and annoying. Doc cleaned them out really well and gave us medications. She really likes her meds "hidden" in peanut butter. Man, are they spoiled! Well, that was a fun outing. It only cost me $377! Woo hoo!

Oh....have you watched Nip/Tuck lately???????

Yeah, yeah, yeah....

and I'M the child-like one, huh? K....you're killin' me!!!!! Let's recap shall we? So....let's see....I found my Serenity Spot, it has been prodded and now my pelvis is sore. Woo hoo!!!!!

Mom and I are having a great time. Went to Hobby Lobby today and it is way cool! *I, unlike someone I know, have learned how to crochet and I am really digging it.* They have like a bazillion colors/textures of yarn to look at. I also saw fabrics to reupholster my dining room chairs (yippee!) That place could pose a problem.

Still waiting on: 1) Test results from 9/17 and 2) The job I submitted my resume for........

After gentle prodding...

I was reminded that I have not written on my Blog recently.

My mom is coming to visit on Monday and I am excited to see her. She "abandoned" me a few years ago to live in a peaceful cabin in Kentucky. I have not been able to go see her for awhile so I am grateful that she is able to come see me a few times a year. I told Hubby that I needed to finish straightening the house up and he asked "Why is it that you clean the house for your mom but not for my parents? Are they not good enough for a clean house?" (Jokingly, of course) I know what I wanted to say but it came out as "Well, Mom sleeps in the bedroom and bathroom up there." Mr. Smarty Pants said "Well, if she sleeps in the bathroom then why do you make the bed." I love him dearly.

I had been eating fairly well until last weekend and it has been downhill ever since. I have lost a total of 6 lbs. though. I swear that M&M's should be on BFL's list because I repeatedly lose weight when I eat them!!!!! Oh yeah....and ice cream. I, like Jess, have not worked out for the past 3 weeks. I did something to my left leg and it feels like my femur bone is grinding inside my pelvic girdle...yea! So, the gym will be there when I am ready again.

I submitted my resume for a new job. I would like to be a Procurement Transplant Coordinator (organs). I really miss the people contact. I love talking to the families in person and what I do now is over the phone. *Keeping my fingers crossed* My Supervisor is very supportive of my decision.

I can't really think of anything else that is going on right now....but I know my Blog will also be there......when I am ready again.

New discoveries...

I had a marvelous time cleaning my house during my time off. It is so nice to be able to walk into a room that is CLEAN!!! It is so hard to do noisy cleaning when Hubby is sleeping....it's even harder to clean the bedroom. It's amazing how quickly dog hair can accumulate.

I have found a new cleaning tool that I absolutely love....Mr. Clean's Magic Eraser. Run...don't walk...to your nearest store to get one (if you don't already have one). It is phenomenal. It even takes soap scum off the glass and tile in the shower.

I have found a new carb that I love. Stacy's Pita Chips (Baked). They are awesome. I have eaten them with tuna salad and with cottage cheese. The Pesto and Sundried Tomato flavor is really yummy. WARNING: They are addictive. Remove your portion and hide the bag!!!

I saw "Uptown Girls" the other day. It is such a "feel good" movie. I highly recommend it.

Well...that's it for now. Take care!